The last time I updated was 2007. I've had so much happen to me in the past few months I figured I should write something down. First I want to speak what's been on my chest for the past few days. My little sister is in the airforce, and now she's going to Iraq. She's currently stationed in Colorado, and come October she's being shipped off into war as a convoy unit. That's apperently one of the most dangerous places to be because of bombings and such. I've been thinking lot about it, certain songs remind me of it, certain words, phrases, things Kate would say... it worries me so. What if she doesn't come back? The thought has been haunting my mind for a while. she's already half a year into the airforce and now its like... will she even come back from her first big mission? Stupid war, stupid Bush, stupid choices. All Kate wants to do is better her life. Get an education and be stronger. So far training has made her an amazingly strong person. But now all I can do from here is pray for her. I don't think she's as scared as I am. This song reminds me of Kate, and makes me cry sometimes. http://youtube.com/watch?v=WgG_4Akt9vM Shadow of the day by Linkin Park. Reminds me Kate, James, Carol, I have too many people I love going into the military. Carol is going into the Navy. One of my best friends, is going into that business and putting their life on the line. I guess I'm at that age where people make choices that are life changing. The big future choices. Where will you be in X amount of years? The question we've all asked ourselves in highschool. Me I saw myself in film, making a living being happy. Kate didn't make that choice, she was undecided and now, she's serving our country. Being one of the bold people out there, fighting for us. I love you Kate, and I pray for your well being. ----------------- On a happier note, I'm very happy. I guess the future has really been on my mind lately. I'm a host of a DJ radio show. The romances experience. http://tre.djromances.com its super cool. I like being an almost radio personality. :) I've been getting into DJing as well. Beat matching is a beautiful thing. Dear Xanga, did I tell you about Patrick? He's wonderful. Not even a drive from LA can keep him away from loving me. Man its what I really needed. Mabe that's why I keep thinking about the future, cause everything is just so close... I can taste it. Film School, Moving to LA, finding my true love. Its inspirational. I've never been so happy with someone before. Even barriers of long distance, can't stop me from being happy with him. oh Patrick, I don't even know if you KNOW I have a xanga, but you inspire me so much. We feed off each other you know. So many things I love about you. I want to be with you forever. :). I want to go to film school already!!! OMG! SOOOO CLOOOSSEEEEE....... I can see me there, before the end of start of 2009, Yes its close, very close. :) I'm really excited to see what happens next in my life. -RG | 
